Zomg. Xomg. Yomg.

Mrs Irene Seah's back in action ! D:
Nuuuuuuuuu, that means more trouble. Haha. Hehe. ;p

First thing she came back she kinda start picking on me again.
Poor me. Sad-ed.. \(^0^)/ HAHAHAHAAA!
Well, I guess I deserved it ? :D
cos-first-thing-i-entered-her-class-i-onlyyy-saidddd :
" WTH ?! You're back ? "
& she was like *hurhhh* , cos I sounded shocked.
& of course I corrected myself , :D
" Ohhhhh! You're finally back ! {: "
YAAAAH. I know I'm hypocritical. Thankyouforyourcompliment.

Arndd. Y'know what? I was swinging my handphone left to right in front of her.
I didn't even know it myself luh ! ):
Apparently she saw it and was already staring at my direction
as if my phone's so nice to look at..
It's like in a bad condition loh! Nothin' good t' look at, ohhhkayyy. {:
It merely flew today! And I'm so surprised it didn't die. o:
During irene's lesson I departed from reality to lalaland. -.-
Wow-ie. She pretended like she didn't see anything.
She was especially nice and lenient that day.
/: Must've been because it was her first day at school after a long period of time.

Hahaha. She found me doodling on my book and confiscated it though.
But she gave me back ! Ironically, she told me this.
" Charlotte, did you draw all this ? "
Me : " Yeah. "
" Good. You should continue drawing more. "

O_O ?!?@ WDF ? I thought she was supposed to tell me to
stop doing this stuff and listen in class. But, nooooooooooo,
she's encouraging me the other way around.

Is she nuts ? D:
I mean, what's wrong with her? I suspect she has some mentality problem.
Hahahaha. Kiddin'. Basically, that's how it ended.

G'night people ! Have a fabulous day ahead !

And it's BOOM again !

I'm so sorry ! :S

Sorry that I've been loosing control of myself and can't keep my cool these days.
The weather has been a hell lot warmer and thanks to it,
I've been going " BOOM ! " these days.
Well, people haven't been being considerate either. ):<
They've been irritating me consistently and there I go trying my best to control
and instead of doing the least they could do, ( LEAVE ME ALONE )
They continue. Getting on my nerves. Pissing me off. Irritating me. Freeak!@
I don't know they did it on purpose or not. Argh.
Just leave me ALONE ! GO AWAY ! SHOOOOO !
Go any other directions away from me. I don't care.
I just want peace! I want to bury myself in a book. Why? Is that something hard to do?

Stop asking me stupid questions.
" Are you okay? " , " Why are you so emo ? "
DO I LOOK LIKE I'M EMO? I'M PERFECTLY FINE!
IT'S NORMAL FOR ME TO READ.
WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM HUH?

Goddammit.

Band. I'm bloodydamned stressed.
9 more days? SYF? Yet he still says the flutes are too loud.
IS THERE EVEN ENOUGH TIME ? I'M WORRIED.
It's tiring. Tiring to just shut up and try playing at your softest and yet.. ):
Are we that horrible? To an extend that it doesn't satisfy him?
At the back, people say we're noisy? Irritating? Not blending in?
ARGH. Probably it's better to not play. Shall fake it out. Too many flutes.

I'm sick and tired of this.
What's the use of trying your best? Nothing.

Perserverance Yields Success?
Prove me right.

Hell-oo people ! :D

Ohmy, I'm actually still alive ! :D Isn't it a miracle ? huhuh? :D
bleahhh. Ignoremeit'ddoyougood. (8

Like finally ! A day of studying, shopping, reading, sleep, sleep, sleep, computing..
.. & still going on. (: As you can see, the sleeping part is more than the others.
It has been very long since I got to sleep so peacefully. (':
My everyday's schedule is so packed that I don't have time to do much stuff.
It's so tiring everyday, ToT I only sleep 5-6 hours daily and apparently, it isn't enough.
No matter how tired I am I still have to get up early. Sigh.
Reason being my teacher has already given me a warning for frequent late coming.
She's not gonna give me another chance. )':
If I'm late one more time again, hope for the best of luck for me then. -.-

Zzzzz. I am hesitant to wake up every morning.
That's why I'm always late for school. -.- At least I bothered turning up. (:

Buhbye.

Screw it.

Another day, another casualty.

So many things happening these few days.
What's going on? Urgh. I mean, why are things turning out so bad.
Accidents, accidents and more accidents.
People going hospitalised and stuff. I'm very worried somehow.
What if I'm the next one. X: Touchwood.
This "thing" going on is just like a fatbighumongous catastrophe..
I hope it doesn't affects anyone else in the world. ):

I believe no one's blessed with happiness all their life.
Perhaps they've reached their life's climax before and it's time that they
had to suffer some way or another.
I hate being a witness of each casualty.
It hurts a lot seeing people get banged by vehicles.
It's like watching people suffering..
You get into a catatonic trance. You feel guilty. You feel helpless.
You question yourself. Why did you ran away and broke down, instead of helping out?
In the end, you push all blame to yourself, making your life miserable.

Why isn't my brain erasing that painful memory. ): It's just like a nightmare.
I wonder if she's still alive..

________

I pity those who's got into something unpleasant.
During the lunch break today, Vania banged the wall and broke one of her tooth.
You should've felt the profound impact of her mouth banging the wall.
It's totally disgusting. Some puked. I freaked out. Once again, broke down. ):
It's scary luh. You can't blame me for being mentally and emotionally weak.
I'm surprised she could still laugh even after what's happened.
It must've hurt a lot. /: Yeah, I guess she was in pain that's why she cried after that.

I'm so gonna take all reasonable precautions to protect myself.
After so many things have happened.
Not gonna do stuff that causes disasters. Including running.
Yeah, so not gonna run in band. Not that I wanna slack.. but..

God bless everyone. Do take care. Seems like anything may happen.

A thousand paper cranes.

; A Thousand Paper Cranes.
It's effects are taking place ! YAY-NESS!

Well, this was what Jonathan's mother emailed me.
Gosh, my first email I've ever read after so many years. (:

Dear Charlotte,

After the operation on Wednesday evening, Jon is breathing without aids.
Doctors confirmed that it's a clog on the tube, bleeding has stopped, there's
no blood clots found in the brain.

He's pressure is on the high side & he's also running a fever. He is currently
treated for a bug infection & there also virus infection in his blood.

Aunty is grateful that most of you refrain from visiting Jon and this will allow him to
heal faster. His doctors are happy with his progress, and if the next 3-5 days are
"smoothly sailing" for Jon, he may be able to moved out of ICU.

The things all of you can do for Jonathan now:-
1) Pray for him & our family
2) Practice hard & do your best in the forthcoming competition, Ping Yi MUST WIN!
3) Concentrate on your studies and excel in your examinations

I'm proud that Jonathan is being loved by so many beautiful boys & girls. I believe
Jonathan love all of you too!

It's natural for all of us to be sad, but this will not do him any good.
All of you have to be strong, you must believe that Jon will recover & bounce back in
action very soon.

I hope you feel better after reading this email, I thank you for your love & concern.

Take care, my dear!

With Love from Jonathan's mother, Mabel.

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Ohmygawd luh, ME IS SO HAPPEEE ! {:
I'd hope he'd wake up soon !

Another challenge in life I'll have to face alone.

What the hell is wrong with the Earth?
Everything's going totally wrong. ):

Jonathan, jonathan, jonathan, jonathan..
His name's been running through my mind again and again
since yesterday after learning the truth.
It's so unfair. Why must such things happen to him. Why him?
He's just a harmless and hyperactive guy. Well, not anymore.
However I'd hope he'd get up soon and be that superduper
wild & crazy guy I used to know again.. ( ..sigh )

I feel totally down. IPW presentation's gonna be tomorrow.
I don't feel the slight lil bit of confidence in me.
I lack of self esteem these days.
Not to mention, I have a sore throat that's giving me
a whole lot of problems to speak up. Damn it.

My science teacher's been replaced.
I've always thought she was the worst and she sucks to the core.. but..
I realised that she wasn't that bad afterall.
The new teacher's rather unsure about what he's teaching.
I so want my old teacher back! .. ))): Filled with regret. I suck.

My results have been deproving, drastically.
I'm pretty upset. I'm such a letdown. I promised that they had nothing to worry about me. But instead, i'm giving them so much problems. I've been negleting myself and they've been worrying for me. I've never cared about these things. Only them. I'm scared. Scared to tell them, I've been negleting my eye.. and I've made the ulcer in the cornea even larger. Eye drops don't work anymore. I'm afraid..

Look. My eyebags. They've grown bigger.
Stressed. Stressed. Stressed. I needa break. I need time on my own.

I is happy, :D

Yesterday was all about band.
Arnd today's gonna be all about Bryan? o.o
Shall update further laterrr. (x

(x) EDITED ! --

I feel really full right now luh. Steamboat and.. ICECREAM. (pukes)
Ahhh, speaking of that.. ( Flashbacks coming right up ! :D ) :
Everything was perfectly fine. Still eating.. nothing went wrong..
UNTIL , one lil innocent cat came running to the grass patch.
Definately we noticed it. Observed it's movements and..

" Why that cat like hunchback one ?"
" Ya loh! I don't know why leh. "
.. Continued lookin' .. and loooooooking and looooooooking. -.-
* Cat relieved itself. *
Everyone : " !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@ "
" ISN'T THAT SHIT ?! "
" WTF ?! "
* Cat continues it's big bussiness. * ( Wow .. Such a nice view. )
" HEY ! I'M STILL EATING LEH ! STUPID CAT ! "

Yeah, so in the end. Meal ended. Thanks to the cat.