Hahaha. Things aren't the way I had hoped it to be anymore.. Family, Friends, School... Etc. Life is tough on me y'know? I bet you wouldn't quite understand my situation, in fact, I don't even think you might even care.... Owell. I think I'm having bad luck now; or is it karma?... Did I even deserve this?
Anyway.. This is how it began. Was at ECP rollerblading with dar when I received a phone call from my mum saying that my aunt threw all my belongings outta the house. Definitely I was totally shocked.... like what the hell did I even do before I left home.. Yeah, I did not even know what was happening.. So yeah, quickly made my way back to 2nd home and found ALL, I repeat, ALL of my stuff packed in many odd plastic bags of sizes ranging from XTRA large to medium.. I was totally lost and did not know where to go.. or to even put all my things. Imagine how you'd feel when your things are all thrown out like how mine was....
Up till now, I still don't get why all this happened. But I was only told that my aunt quarreled with my grandmother on why my aunt allowed me to stay there in the first place... I don't know how it happened either. Did I do something wrong...? ): I feel that my grandmother is at fault for this... She's old already and since she has nothing else better to do, she finds trouble anytime.. She even said that she doesn't bother if I was beaten to death. But... Sigh. Right now I'm being mocked at by my parents.. That wherever I go, there's no happiness. Somehow, nothing seems wrong about that but I hate to admit it, the truth hurts. I'm being laughed at, I'm being looked down on.. Useless me.
Luckily dar helped to move my things back to where I originally stay at.. I really did not know what to do with all that mess.. I'm really grateful. Right now, I'll just try to avoid trouble with my father and try to save my own life... So yeah, unpacked the clothes, folded them one by one neatly, and put them where it should be.. Changed bedsheets... Yadadada.. Done. Except that I haven't brought back any of my books yet - it's too heavy.. At least I have my bag to go to school. There was a lil unhappiness between my sister and I because I was moving back and it meant I was gonna take up some space.. Has she forgotten that she has a sister? I really wonder...
Because my eye suddenly worsened one day before the Mid Year Examination, I had no choice but to consult a doctor.. But, no one was there to help me. Hesitant.. I called up my dad to pick me up. Of course he did mentioned " Got trouble only call your father.." in a very sarcastic tone... Sigh. Yes, he did bring me and I don't feel pain right now..
There was band practice today. I was really enthusiastic about it since it was after so long that there was band practices.. But.. I had already changed my doctor's appointment date to Friday, which was today.. and my father did not want to change it for me again.. It meant that I had to be absent for school on that day. Worried about many things, I had been thinking, whether to or not to go to school for a few days.. In the end, I went to school today to get my attendance taken. Yeah, unfortunately my dad insisted on bringing me to the doctor.. so he picked me up while I was in school. Did not have a choice but to go, luckily I had already taken my attendance - I could be back at school after that for band. (: Yeah, I was really looking forward, I did go back to school and rushed back before 1.30 but.... I guess I made a wasted trip today... I had been worrying about this too, days before because my conscience told me so. My conscience is right.
I made myself feel upset instead.
In the end, it doesn't really matter, does it?
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