Life has changed much. (:

Isn't it great? :D For the past few days, it feels like I'm so free. Not that much of being free but more than before. More than when there was still the usual band practices going on. Gaaah. I'm so used to staying back in school late. It feels very awkward going home straight after schooling. Sigh, I miss band already, y'know why? 'Cos I'm the sorta typical-typical band people, HAHA ! There goes band and people like me go " I miss band.. I MISS BAND, " here, there and everywhere ! .. Actually I don't do that okay ! I only see people doing that and that irritates me a lot. 'Cos those people who say imissbandimissband are the ones that are always complaining about how tiring band is. I wonder what they actually want.

When there isn't band, they want it.
When there's band, they don't turn up.

I feel like murdering/strangling those people..! ):<
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! >;B killllllllllll.. KILLLLLLLLLLLLLL !@#

I is only kidding ! D:
Don't call the police to tell them that I'm about to murder some moronic people, OKAY ?

See ya !

Crazified.

I feel shagged. I feel stupid.. ! D:
Can't believe I actually used up most of my brain cells today.

I can tell you what I really think.
Studying is great ! It's not as hard as you think it is.
*Hohoho, Charlotte, you've done a great job today! (8
Yeah, currently only Jacqueline knows about my obsession on studying.
If you know 'bout it, you'd think I'm crazy. /:
But, no I'm not crazy. I'm just trying to catch up while I can. (:

Truth is I lost interest in my academics at the start of the year.
I dreaded my teachers. I diedie didn't want to bring my books and stuff.
I hated coming to school. I came to school late everyday. I skip classes. I skip school.
I sleep in classes. I scribble on my assignments. I don't listen nor respect teachers.

I've learnt, I've realised, I've reflected.
I nearly went into the wrong path.
I know I'm wrong. I promise to change for the better.
I won't try but I'll do it, definitely, okay? {:

Trust me.
I'm back to square one.

All my fault.

What's going on ? What went wrong ? What's happening ?

So many things that I need to know.
Unless they're told to me right in my face, I won't know.. I'll never know..
It wouldn't do you any good by just keeping them to yourself.
I'm sorry if I've hurt you in any way, but I need to know, isn't it for the better?

It hurts going through everyday, knowing you're doing something wrong but you don't know what it is. Life is really hard this few days. You can never imagine what I'm going through. I'm living in hell, just that I still go through some happy periods with people though. They're definitely much cherished. Every smile, every laughter. They're all things that make my day. Sadly, they don't happen often. Time is too short. I need more time, and that's all I ask for. I hate it when each day ends. As time goes by, you know what people really are. You know who're your true friends, you know who really cares and who doesn't. I realised that some people aren't what they seem. They're still good people in the world, I'm relieved. They seem like they don't give a damn about anything but they actually do. I guess that they're probably afraid to show their feelings. It doesn't matter. It's the inside them that counts. But there is also another side of human nature. There are people that cannot be relied on nor trusted at all. All they care of is themselves. They don't think of the others.

I can now differentiate the two.
After so many things that has happened, you can already tell one's personality.

I feel that I shouldn't even join a clique.
It's not your fault. It's all mine.

I'm " loving " the weather !

It's soooo HOT and no longer warm !

Can you horrible humans stop your burning of coals, oil, etc. ?!?
It's freaking irritating when people know that the climate will change
after doing all this and still continues doing so.
ARRARARGHHH ! HAHAHAHARHARHAHR !
THE WEATHER IS MAKING ME CRAZY ! ^_^ !!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS EXTREME IRRITATION YOXZCXZSCXZ !!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,
FYI, I'm notta human, (:
It isn't my fault that the weather is like that.
So since I'm not a human, I've all rights to blame you all ... !!!!
IT'S YOUR FAULT ! MUAHAHAA !
O.O.. I'm not serious about this btw.

I'm worrying for myself in advance,
because since it's the outdoor period next year,
I'm so gonna suffer under the hothotHOT sun and not only that.
I realised that the weather is getting from bad to worse..
Basically, if it's hot now, what would happen next year ? D:
DAMNBLOODYFWEAAAKINGVERY HOT ? :D
OH WOWWWWW ! I'M SO DAMN LOOOOOKING FORWARRRD ! :DDDD
NOT ! UWAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

I HOPE I'D BE GONE BY THEN ! SERIOUSLY !

okokokok, I realised it myself !
I know I'm getting crazier as I type on,

sooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
BUH-BYE ! Enjoy yourself !

Hello again. :D
I don't know how long I can stand hello-ing each and every time I blog.
I find blogging kinda stupid. Question is, why did I even bother creating this blog?
Tagboards are for hi and byes.
Updatings are for people to read. Maybe there are some who don't even bother reading.
Worst still, you don't gain anything from typing a whole chunk of nonsensicle stuff.
Absolutely nothing. So you see, this is useless !
But I still find it a good source of killing time though.
Hah, so that's why you still find me updating. ^^v !

I swear the weather is killing me ! ):

Easy-going person?

I wonder if there's someone out there in the world that's similar to me.
As in behaviour and attitude wise. Not to mention, having the same mentality.
Who knows. They could be putting up a strong front.

To some people, I appear to be forlorn and unsociable.
However to the others, I'm rather wild and talkative.
What I'm really am to your own opinion.
Truth is, I'm two-faced and hypocritical.
I absolutely hate to communicate with people.
Sorry, it's just that I have difficulties expressing myself and I don't know how to feel.
I noticed I'm most of the time expressionless.

It hurts a lot inside. Very true, question is, why don't I just tell people straight in the face?
It's because I'm afraid of hurting other people's feelings. That's all.
Sometimes when I can't take it anymore, I'll definately tell the particular person off,
but I'll regret. Regretting and hating myself for my own selfishness.
I should've thought about the other's feelings.
It's really irritating when people force you to do things you don't wanna do.
Leave me alone for once. You can all still live without me.
I hate it when any of you gets pissed off with me just because I don't wanna go along with you people. It's not like I want it. Obviously I have to other some things to settle right ?
Or not why do you think I have to go off early.
Can you all for the least, understand ? I have all doubts.
Get angry, get pissed, ignore me, THIS is what I think you all would do.

Why is it that you all always get angry so easily?
I've been tolerating you people for bloody damn long already.
Is everything you people know just a word ?.... " DAO " ?
Why can't you all just be.. Consistent?
As in, your moods are always up and down.
When you're happy, you laugh, talk and joke with the rest.
But when you're somehow not in the mood, you just ignore all the rest,
affecting the other's moods to be just like yours.
Is that how any of you like it ?
If you're feeling down, go to your own funeral.
Don't pull the others along, we so do not wanna attend.
To put in a much, milder way, just hide your feelings, don't affect the others too, it's bad.

I don't know if I'm in the wrong or not.
I'm afraid I am. I hope I'm talking sense.
I don't wanna wrongly accuse anyone.

Goodbye.

Don't these people have shame ?

I mean, why do they have to go around showing people that they watch porn, as though it's something to be proud of. I know it's normal for curious people, but, keep them to yourself for goodness sake, stop showing off.

Recently, I realised that the amount of people watching all those stuff is increasing. Rapidly. And they're a bunch of fools that shows off to other people for some unknown reason. Something I found out, not only guys but girls also watches porn. Sheesh. Corrupted people with corrupted minds. Yah, we put someone to the test today and realised that he gets addicted easily. Strange. What is it that's so nice to look at huh ?

The vicissitudes of life.

Ni hao ( Hello ) ! :D

I am so, so, so, HAPPEEE ! 'Cos I've just received good news,
Jonathan's been moved to ICA ( Intensive Care Area ) ! YAY !
After 30 days in the horrid ICU ! FINALLY !
At least his condition's improving ! So it means good news, HAHAHAHAH !
Continue praying for the welfare of Jonathon, people.
I still hope he opens his eyes though. {:

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Three cheers for me ! I completed the napfa 2.4 km run ! :D
It's tiring when you run, joke and laugh at the same time. Sheesh.
Can't believe I wasted so much energy laughing. HAHAHAHA ! x:
It's good to have laugher in the atmosphere though.
Instead of having people falling sick after the run and refusing to get up.

One perfect example, Bryan Er Wen Jie.
This dumbass was whining and complaining that he has a headache and a tummyache. -.-
And when you least expected it, he vomited. I'm sooo glad that he didn't vomit on me,
that's all that matters. (8 No luh, I helped out okay ! hahaha.
He also left his wallet in a cab. He got it back though.
I call it one of Bryan's unluckiest moments. (:
And, I'm honoured to be witnessing it anyway. Hawhaw.

The last band practice was somehow and somewhat fun.
The ass ( Sayidah ) and the sucker ( Me ) were trying out somthing new,
Playing our instruments ( Piccolo & Flute ) on the left instead of the right.
How wonderful, we could still produce music ! HAHAHA.
Unique eh ? We're still working on it though.
* Not used to it. My left hand's weaker than the left, awts. (x

Bleahblooblahh ! :p

Damn you for all you've done.

Irritated.

MILO-ED.

I had milo poured on me a few hours ago. How.. lucky of me, I can say.
It was an accident afterall. I guess no one's supposed to be blamed. /:
Can you imagine yourself getting yourself soaked in milo ?
Shiok eh? .. No way. Obviously you'll feel mad, real mad.
Indeed that was how I felt but, I managed my anger.
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, CHARLOTTE ! :D
* Pats myself on the shoulder. *
Yes. I am self-praising. So what if you think I'm a retard. Jealous ? (:

Just ignore me okay?
When I get tired, this much crap is in my mind.
I neeeeed sleep. Like seri0usly. Immediately.

Goodnight, sleep tight.
Have a hyped day ahead.

THANK YOU TO ALL !

Yello,

I'm finally back home after more than 48 hours ! :D
If you're wondering, I'm fine right now.
Just a few bruises and all left. (: Heh.

I've actually learnt a lot after this whole incident.
I guess I've taken a lot of things for granted. ToT a whole lot.
There are still people out there that still cares. (': I'm so touched.
Everyone was worry so much and yet.. -_-v
I owe a whole lot to Tan Jing Yi. /:
She put me up at her place. And.. AND.. SHE TREATED MY WOUNDS! :D
* It is indeed rare to see her so thoughful and kind, (':
Hohohohohoho. ~

I realised that she sleeps like a pig at night. \(^0^)/
Who knows if she snores. Ahhhh! Wasted, I was already asleep. /:
Hahahahahas, kidding only luh. ;p
Poor her, got disturbed by me in the morning cos I was too hyper. o.ob
She was like *_* and I was like ^_^ ..
Ehhhh ! She slept for a longer period of time than me ohkay ! D:
LOLOLOL !

Byebye, (:
I like everyone, I love bing ! \(L)/

Heyhey ! :D

It feels great being at home!
There's nothing to worry about, except for the fact that I don't know how to spend my time.
Hahahahha. (8 Best thing is that no one's around you.
Truth is, I prefer isolation. There're times where I really detest to socialize. I don't know why.
I know I'm rather peculiar, but this is how I am. /: Haha.

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Yesterday was a day out with my parents, I had no choice but to tag along.
'cos it was my dad's birthday. o:
Celebrated it at the most typical way and *poof, that's all, day ended.
Heh. I can't carry on further, so tatas. {:

(x) Edited, at 03.47am.
Feeling lost right now. What should I do? ):
Learning to survive on my own.

Metamorphosis

So many things to say. Yet one word explains it all. Disappointed.
Is it because I care too much?
I don't think I deserved this kind of treatment from Miss Goh.
Yes. I'm truly affected by everything she said.
I have every right to feel pissed and irritated.

I was kind enough to turn up for band even though I thought I had piano lessons.
It was postponed to another day so I didn't bring my pe attire.
Like wtf, like who would expect that my teacher would agree to postpone the lesson?
She only replied my message a day after and and moment of time I was in school.
HOW WOULD I KNOW ? I really felt like strangling someone luh.
If I had known I wouldn't have bothered to turn up.
Why should I care ? When I could have just went home and sleep?
When I could have lied and told my SL that the piano lesson was still on and I had to go?

I just felt very wronged. Damn it.
I guess having the right mind to come to band isn't a good thing afterall.
You get into trouble instead.

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Well,
Food really cheered me up.
Went to mac for an ice cream, and woah, it definately made me feel better.
Thanks to the phone napper, Jacqueline, too!
Btw, Bryan's a phone snatcher, Jianhao's a phone robber.
All wanna seperate my phone and I from being together. )':

Peanut people. There are a lot of better looking phones than mine ohkay.
Go take other's, not mine. (:

Freak.

JH ahma, you're an idiot too. (:

WHOOWAAAWHEEEE ! :D
WE'VE GOT A SILVER! SILVERRRRRRRR ! SILVER LEH ! xD

Hahahahahahaha.
Seems like everybody's exultant at the attainment of the silver medal.
Sad for me, I didn't knew how to react after the news. Haha.
Firstly I was totally stunned. Then the band started being noisy.
Basically they were screaming. And screaming. And screaming.
Of course they gave that high-pitched squeal.
Wow, my ears couldn't take it. But it's okay. (:
Afterall, it was victory to the band. Silver was what we were targetting.
Thank goodness, IT'S FINALLY OVER! So it means,
part of the stress-contributing issues are lifted off me.

I can sleep without worries today! YAYEEE ! :D

Band's over. Have to concentrate on other things now luhh. zz.
For the past few days, I felt like a total band geek.
Everything was all about band, band, band, BANDDDD!

Hohoho, byebye indoor! ~ it's finally off my mind. Whoopee! \(^0^)/

JACQUELINE LIM LIYUN'S A PHONE-NAPPER !
BE WARY OF HER ! MUAHAHAHA !
She phone-napped my peanut handphone! D:
Curently missing my phone. -.- Hahaha.

Will we emerge triumphant?

I'm feeling really upbeat/ thrilled/ intoxicated/ elated/ gay/ ecstatic.
Ahhh, so many feelings at the same time ! :D

Afterall, it's what typical people would feel when they're gonna take part
in SYFs. Especially for the central judging of concert bands !
Omg.omg.omg. Just a day away. In fact, lesser than a day.
I can't wait! * screams * Hahahahahahaha.
Note to self : Don't be apprehensive about tommorow's performance.
Yeah, everyone ought to do so too! :D
I'd hope nothing screws up. Absolutely nothing. Just perfection. {:

No matter what medal we're gonna get, stay proud and strong.
Because we know that we're the one and only, high and mighty Ping Yi Marching Band !
UWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! X: I never fail to start crapping. Sigh.. ANYWAY,
Dearest PYMB-ians ! We can do it ! Gambeteh !

I ♥ Ping Yi Marching Band !
Do you ? :D :D Yes? I know. Thanks a whole lot ! HARHAR.

" A ghost farted and died. "

shit. shit. shit.

It's just 2 days away! D: & I'm scared already.
All it takes is to play your music from your heart.
Feeeeel the music. Pffffffffffttt.. Fakhrina's good at it. X:
Just watch her luh ! HAHAHAHAHA ! :D :D :D
Back to the topic,
Though the medals are like *blingbling*, don't play it just for them,
and most importantly, not to play for the sake of it.
Every note played is precious, ohkay! O:

I don't know what I'm feeling right now.
Perhaps, .. excited about the big day & maybe worried, afraid.

Some lil sucker told me this,
" a ghost farted and died.. "
Oh wow, I don't know what I should say. -.-
It's so .. scary, funny, and sad. Stupid crap. Harhar.

Some cliques. Some idiots.

Heh.

It seems like I'm unable to tolerate people these days.
I've been telling them straight in the face what I really think about them.
Probably, they've been far too annoying to an extent that I can't take it anymore?
That's why I'm being so straightforward with them? Dang.
What the hell is wrong with meeeee ? ):
The me I know is someone that doesn't tell another person off,
able to understand the situation and think twice about what I'm doing.
Hahahah. I can't do that anymore. Yeah. I'm rather hot tempered these days.

I guess it's time for me, to sleep more and relax ! :D
Hahahaha, that'll do it ! I need sleep luh. Seriously.

The 2 people I must say I'm sorry to, are my mom and dad.
Sorry I've been screaming at you both for nothing,
loosing my cool and venting my anger on you. ):
I'm glad to have parents like them though they're irritating. Just like me. (8
They've been doing their best to tolerate me and understanding that I've been undergoing a whole lot of stress thanks to my lousy management of time.
And if you're wondering why I'm only apologising in my blog..
It's because I don't feel comfortable apologising in front of you both. AND! AND!
Don't think I don't know that you two often come to my blog and read my posts.
It's just that I've been acting like I don't know anything. Huahar.

Silly two people. :D When I asked if they knew my blog link, they said 'no'.
But just look at their silly two faces. You could already tell they're lying.
:p , toooooooooooooots !

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Those hopeful audiences shall be dazzled by the glamour of PYMB in 3 days.
PYMB, jiayouu! :D

Hello tiny earthlings! :D

Mind sharing with me about your day?
You don't have to tell me, I'm not interested anyway. (:
Muahahah. I know what you're thinking right now.
Whatever it is, i take it as a compliment. {:
And now, I'm going to talk about my day.
Whether you're interested or not. I don't care/ bother/ don't wanna hear.
Sheesh, I'm so irritating. X:

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I was the hardworking me today. I'm so proud of myself. (:
Listened attentively throughout the extra maths lesson.
I'm so not me luh. (: Whoopee ! I'm on my way to get back my 'A's.
Stupid shit luh. From a beautiful result slip without reds nor underlines..
become so.. UGLY ! Uhh, red is nice.. BUT I DON'T LIKE IT ON MY RESULT SLIP.
RAHHHHH ! ):< Fwreeeaak it.
I make sure I don't get the same thing this term. Haha. (:

Band was fun. Cos it started out fun.
THE WARM-UPS! :D Yeah, went out of MPR for warm-ups.
Everyone was like on their own luh. So boring one luh. -.-
Then I decided to do the retarded and also fun way of warm-ups.
Yeah, explained it to the rest and they were like 'okay, (: '
So there we go, tounging and playing minims, crochets, quavers and semiquavers.
OHMYGAWD ! IT'S SO FUN LUH! IMAGINE WARM-UPS LIKE THAT EVERYDAY !

:D :D :D

Yeah, so everyone outside went back into the MPR with high spirits.
Hahahahahahas, SYF in 4 more days.
Day are passing real quickly ! :D

So self-centered. Freak you.

Uwaaah! O: I actually managed to escape the parent's meeting!

I attended the talk which I found rather stupid.
It's like, why bother telling us this and that and yadadada..
When in the end all you have to do is get good grades? /:
This is what I think luh. FYI, keep your comments to yourself.
Well, I miraculously turned up 'cos I just wanna get my report book back..
I DID get it back in the end. But. Uhhh. Wasn't supposed to get it back.
But. Who cares ? I don't. :D

tsktsktsk. I'm not that evil luh.
It isn't my fault anyway ! :D
I was simply just desperate to get my hands on my report book luh. ;p
Bleahzxs the teacher.
She definately knew my main purpose of turning up.
All I was asking her was about my report book.
" When are you giving it back ? "
" Can I have it back, pleaseeee ? "
" Can I leave after getting my report book ? "

Hehehehehe. Smart teacher.
Gave excuses like, your parents are not here, you can't get it back.
But I still got it in the end. UWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

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Enough. Enough of the retarded side of me.
Serious stuff, (: , 5 more days to SYF ! RAAAAHHHH ! (8
Just 5 more days and it'd be overrrrrrr ! But wait! >:D Hang on there, people.
Because after the SYF , the outdoor period will once boom into your life again.
Muahahahahahaha. It's not over! ... YET! Wait till I get out of this shit!
I think I'd laugh very crazily like I never did before..
& like as if I was someone just released from jail.
Kiddin'. (: It'd be odd without band. I'd have too much free time. I guess.

Band dogs ? Band freaks ?
Thank you for your compliments. So what?
You non-band members will never understand.
& if you're an ex band member who quitted after a while, you don't have the right attitude.
It's your fault if it's so. C'mon admit it. At least someone did.
There'd be a link between band and yourself. It's something unexplainable.
Yes, I agree band's somehow 'overtaking' my life.
But. Somehow I don't mind. I just like going for band practices.
It's my life, I control it, I make decisions for myself. Not you people.
It's irritating when your teacher starts telling you the negative side of band,
humiliating you with sacarstic remarks, telling you how much time you're wasting.
Can't she just shut the fxck up?
Instead of telling the whole class and discouraging you to join the band?
It seriously makes my blood boil just thinking of it, close to evaporation.

Once again, keep your comments to yourself.
Probably this is one thing I have to go through for having band as my CCA.

It's been 9 looooong months! <3

WOOHOO !!!

So much homework left uncompleted and yet I feel so relaxed.
I did some though. Me is proud of muh-self. (:
I was scribbling crap all the way on my composition.
But still.. Yeah, at least I manged to finish it right ? :D
Owell, I'm left with a pile of i-owe-teacher homework and I definately can't finish it today.

Nothing is impossible ? Impossible is nothing ?
I think is VERYVERY true, but also untrue. -.-
Since everything is possible, it could be possible that SOMETHING is impossible to do, beyond reach. Possible right? If you get what I mean.
Hahahaha. Or else just think I'm crappin'. (:
muahahahahaha.

I wanna know my chinese oral results. IT'S ITCHING MEEEYH !
Chinese wouldn't be chinese when it comes out of my mouth.
I'm serious ! It's that horrible ohkay ! My teacher's superduper mean.
She encourages me to drop out chinese.
There's no way I'm gonna give up so easily !
Perserverance yields success's PY's school motto so IT'S MY FORTE ! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
* AHHHHH * SYF IN 6 DAYS ! :D
Soon it'd be OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ! Kaykay, that's for the random. (:

Yeah, and so it's time for me to buck up.
Fight for what I really want ! :D
Charlotte! You can do it ! Jiayouuu !

See ya crappers soon ! \(L)/