Zomg. Xomg. Yomg.

Mrs Irene Seah's back in action ! D:
Nuuuuuuuuu, that means more trouble. Haha. Hehe. ;p

First thing she came back she kinda start picking on me again.
Poor me. Sad-ed.. \(^0^)/ HAHAHAHAAA!
Well, I guess I deserved it ? :D
cos-first-thing-i-entered-her-class-i-onlyyy-saidddd :
" WTH ?! You're back ? "
& she was like *hurhhh* , cos I sounded shocked.
& of course I corrected myself , :D
" Ohhhhh! You're finally back ! {: "
YAAAAH. I know I'm hypocritical. Thankyouforyourcompliment.

Arndd. Y'know what? I was swinging my handphone left to right in front of her.
I didn't even know it myself luh ! ):
Apparently she saw it and was already staring at my direction
as if my phone's so nice to look at..
It's like in a bad condition loh! Nothin' good t' look at, ohhhkayyy. {:
It merely flew today! And I'm so surprised it didn't die. o:
During irene's lesson I departed from reality to lalaland. -.-
Wow-ie. She pretended like she didn't see anything.
She was especially nice and lenient that day.
/: Must've been because it was her first day at school after a long period of time.

Hahaha. She found me doodling on my book and confiscated it though.
But she gave me back ! Ironically, she told me this.
" Charlotte, did you draw all this ? "
Me : " Yeah. "
" Good. You should continue drawing more. "

O_O ?!?@ WDF ? I thought she was supposed to tell me to
stop doing this stuff and listen in class. But, nooooooooooo,
she's encouraging me the other way around.

Is she nuts ? D:
I mean, what's wrong with her? I suspect she has some mentality problem.
Hahahaha. Kiddin'. Basically, that's how it ended.

G'night people ! Have a fabulous day ahead !

And it's BOOM again !

I'm so sorry ! :S

Sorry that I've been loosing control of myself and can't keep my cool these days.
The weather has been a hell lot warmer and thanks to it,
I've been going " BOOM ! " these days.
Well, people haven't been being considerate either. ):<
They've been irritating me consistently and there I go trying my best to control
and instead of doing the least they could do, ( LEAVE ME ALONE )
They continue. Getting on my nerves. Pissing me off. Irritating me. Freeak!@
I don't know they did it on purpose or not. Argh.
Just leave me ALONE ! GO AWAY ! SHOOOOO !
Go any other directions away from me. I don't care.
I just want peace! I want to bury myself in a book. Why? Is that something hard to do?

Stop asking me stupid questions.
" Are you okay? " , " Why are you so emo ? "
DO I LOOK LIKE I'M EMO? I'M PERFECTLY FINE!
IT'S NORMAL FOR ME TO READ.
WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM HUH?

Goddammit.

Band. I'm bloodydamned stressed.
9 more days? SYF? Yet he still says the flutes are too loud.
IS THERE EVEN ENOUGH TIME ? I'M WORRIED.
It's tiring. Tiring to just shut up and try playing at your softest and yet.. ):
Are we that horrible? To an extend that it doesn't satisfy him?
At the back, people say we're noisy? Irritating? Not blending in?
ARGH. Probably it's better to not play. Shall fake it out. Too many flutes.

I'm sick and tired of this.
What's the use of trying your best? Nothing.

Perserverance Yields Success?
Prove me right.

Hell-oo people ! :D

Ohmy, I'm actually still alive ! :D Isn't it a miracle ? huhuh? :D
bleahhh. Ignoremeit'ddoyougood. (8

Like finally ! A day of studying, shopping, reading, sleep, sleep, sleep, computing..
.. & still going on. (: As you can see, the sleeping part is more than the others.
It has been very long since I got to sleep so peacefully. (':
My everyday's schedule is so packed that I don't have time to do much stuff.
It's so tiring everyday, ToT I only sleep 5-6 hours daily and apparently, it isn't enough.
No matter how tired I am I still have to get up early. Sigh.
Reason being my teacher has already given me a warning for frequent late coming.
She's not gonna give me another chance. )':
If I'm late one more time again, hope for the best of luck for me then. -.-

Zzzzz. I am hesitant to wake up every morning.
That's why I'm always late for school. -.- At least I bothered turning up. (:

Buhbye.

Screw it.

Another day, another casualty.

So many things happening these few days.
What's going on? Urgh. I mean, why are things turning out so bad.
Accidents, accidents and more accidents.
People going hospitalised and stuff. I'm very worried somehow.
What if I'm the next one. X: Touchwood.
This "thing" going on is just like a fatbighumongous catastrophe..
I hope it doesn't affects anyone else in the world. ):

I believe no one's blessed with happiness all their life.
Perhaps they've reached their life's climax before and it's time that they
had to suffer some way or another.
I hate being a witness of each casualty.
It hurts a lot seeing people get banged by vehicles.
It's like watching people suffering..
You get into a catatonic trance. You feel guilty. You feel helpless.
You question yourself. Why did you ran away and broke down, instead of helping out?
In the end, you push all blame to yourself, making your life miserable.

Why isn't my brain erasing that painful memory. ): It's just like a nightmare.
I wonder if she's still alive..

________

I pity those who's got into something unpleasant.
During the lunch break today, Vania banged the wall and broke one of her tooth.
You should've felt the profound impact of her mouth banging the wall.
It's totally disgusting. Some puked. I freaked out. Once again, broke down. ):
It's scary luh. You can't blame me for being mentally and emotionally weak.
I'm surprised she could still laugh even after what's happened.
It must've hurt a lot. /: Yeah, I guess she was in pain that's why she cried after that.

I'm so gonna take all reasonable precautions to protect myself.
After so many things have happened.
Not gonna do stuff that causes disasters. Including running.
Yeah, so not gonna run in band. Not that I wanna slack.. but..

God bless everyone. Do take care. Seems like anything may happen.

A thousand paper cranes.

; A Thousand Paper Cranes.
It's effects are taking place ! YAY-NESS!

Well, this was what Jonathan's mother emailed me.
Gosh, my first email I've ever read after so many years. (:

Dear Charlotte,

After the operation on Wednesday evening, Jon is breathing without aids.
Doctors confirmed that it's a clog on the tube, bleeding has stopped, there's
no blood clots found in the brain.

He's pressure is on the high side & he's also running a fever. He is currently
treated for a bug infection & there also virus infection in his blood.

Aunty is grateful that most of you refrain from visiting Jon and this will allow him to
heal faster. His doctors are happy with his progress, and if the next 3-5 days are
"smoothly sailing" for Jon, he may be able to moved out of ICU.

The things all of you can do for Jonathan now:-
1) Pray for him & our family
2) Practice hard & do your best in the forthcoming competition, Ping Yi MUST WIN!
3) Concentrate on your studies and excel in your examinations

I'm proud that Jonathan is being loved by so many beautiful boys & girls. I believe
Jonathan love all of you too!

It's natural for all of us to be sad, but this will not do him any good.
All of you have to be strong, you must believe that Jon will recover & bounce back in
action very soon.

I hope you feel better after reading this email, I thank you for your love & concern.

Take care, my dear!

With Love from Jonathan's mother, Mabel.

---

Ohmygawd luh, ME IS SO HAPPEEE ! {:
I'd hope he'd wake up soon !

Another challenge in life I'll have to face alone.

What the hell is wrong with the Earth?
Everything's going totally wrong. ):

Jonathan, jonathan, jonathan, jonathan..
His name's been running through my mind again and again
since yesterday after learning the truth.
It's so unfair. Why must such things happen to him. Why him?
He's just a harmless and hyperactive guy. Well, not anymore.
However I'd hope he'd get up soon and be that superduper
wild & crazy guy I used to know again.. ( ..sigh )

I feel totally down. IPW presentation's gonna be tomorrow.
I don't feel the slight lil bit of confidence in me.
I lack of self esteem these days.
Not to mention, I have a sore throat that's giving me
a whole lot of problems to speak up. Damn it.

My science teacher's been replaced.
I've always thought she was the worst and she sucks to the core.. but..
I realised that she wasn't that bad afterall.
The new teacher's rather unsure about what he's teaching.
I so want my old teacher back! .. ))): Filled with regret. I suck.

My results have been deproving, drastically.
I'm pretty upset. I'm such a letdown. I promised that they had nothing to worry about me. But instead, i'm giving them so much problems. I've been negleting myself and they've been worrying for me. I've never cared about these things. Only them. I'm scared. Scared to tell them, I've been negleting my eye.. and I've made the ulcer in the cornea even larger. Eye drops don't work anymore. I'm afraid..

Look. My eyebags. They've grown bigger.
Stressed. Stressed. Stressed. I needa break. I need time on my own.

I is happy, :D

Yesterday was all about band.
Arnd today's gonna be all about Bryan? o.o
Shall update further laterrr. (x

(x) EDITED ! --

I feel really full right now luh. Steamboat and.. ICECREAM. (pukes)
Ahhh, speaking of that.. ( Flashbacks coming right up ! :D ) :
Everything was perfectly fine. Still eating.. nothing went wrong..
UNTIL , one lil innocent cat came running to the grass patch.
Definately we noticed it. Observed it's movements and..

" Why that cat like hunchback one ?"
" Ya loh! I don't know why leh. "
.. Continued lookin' .. and loooooooking and looooooooking. -.-
* Cat relieved itself. *
Everyone : " !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@ "
" ISN'T THAT SHIT ?! "
" WTF ?! "
* Cat continues it's big bussiness. * ( Wow .. Such a nice view. )
" HEY ! I'M STILL EATING LEH ! STUPID CAT ! "

Yeah, so in the end. Meal ended. Thanks to the cat.

See the retarded side of me.

YAWNNNN ! (x I'm totally worn out.
I spent my whole day differently today. Howww interesting. {:
Uhm. Today is, FRIDAY.. ?! How in the world did time pass so quickly?! D:
The Earth is weird. Screw the Earth! Rotate so fast for what ?! ):<
Anyway,
THANKS TO THE EARTH AND TIME !
SCHOOL'S GONNA REOPEN SOOON !
PISSED OFF LARH ! .......

:D :D :D :D :D

Current status : LALALALA ! ( all the happehappeh words you can think of )
Hehehehehehehehe.. Yarhluh. I'm not feeling angry/depressed at all.
Nothing's spoilt my mood yet. YET. YETTTT! ~
I want go sleep already, goodnight in advance!

CIAOS !

--edited.

Felt I had to say this.
I have to admit. The word ' drunkards ' has never crossed my mind, since school started, till today. Sigh, I miss those days. We used to be supadupar close. Now.. I guess we don't go along as a clique as much as we did in the past. Something is merely different.
Yeah, Sunday, another outing together, after such a long time.
Hnnrrrgh. ):

HAHA.

Everywhere's aching. Especially my hands.
Urghhh, we've been holding up our flutes for straight 3 days and.. awts (x
Hehehe, had piano lesson today and couldn't play my pieces properly.
Hmmm, guess I did badly today, ): Sad..
Phyllis said I was like a robot with no feelings and couldn't play " romance " properly.
So yeah, I changed my choice piece for the B category. Sad again. ): Sighhh.
Examinations are like coming-coming, and yet.. T.T
Hmm, same goes for band, changed to Folklore last minute. zzz -'-
Lalalalala, the song is so-so luh, actually quite fun leh ! :D

...... ARND - ARND!

SYF! SYF! SYF! :D :D Wheehee! Me is happeee! Me is lookin' forward yeah. ;p
Anyway, I didn't attend remedial class.
Hmm.. I'm sick of the atmosphere in school? I'm tired? Lazy? I needa break? (:
Ahahahahah.. Ms Goh's gonna call my parents,
who were actually the ones that encouraged me not to go to school.
Err, why.. THANKYOU,
how.. Uhm.. Understanding, .. Of you both.
So touching uh. (': I'm moved. Hehehehe.

Buh-byeee. <3

Home sweet home ! :D

3 days 2 nights at camp ? Ahh, I'm tired.

I can say this band camp turned out good. Better than the previous one.
However, as usual, the leaders don't give girls time to do their hair and stuff.
Meanies. Hmph. ):<

Tags replied.
Siyi : Thanks, I'll keep that in mind, I guess. & I don'twant do your quiz. :D
Bjorn : Yeah, I did see you. And obviously I ignored you. (:
Peishin : MissSwaySway? LOL ! Hahahaha.
Dorothea : Uh, don't bother 'bout it, (:
Ezpzy : Uh, weird name you've got eh ? Matter of how I see it ? Hmmm ...
Bryan : Stupid.
Tingting : Yeah, sure. (:
MingKwang : What's that supposed to be ? :cool: ? COOL ? HAHA!
CharlotteLIM : O-wooow. You actually tagged me back. O.O Yeah, I'll link you up.
Wenfeng : Tagged ? Is that all you've got to say ? Hehehehe.
Jun : Sai-Bu ? Wdf ? ==
Mendel : Hi back to you too.

Awwwww.. ):

I just realised that the holidays aren't gonna be holidays at all.
Damn. My whole schedule is freakin' packed.
Band camp, projects, remedials, homework.. all that.
How in daa wurld am I gonna enjoy?
Sigh, I guess I'm still gonna be busybusybusyy,
Hmph, no fun at all. ):< HAHAHAHA ! I just had flashbacks of yesterday! xD Band was.. L-O-L ! Some people should know why. xD Pspsps , I promise I won't do it again, HEHEHEHE. Sorry for the horrible shock caused. ;p ---- Shall update further laterrr .. {: heeheehee..

- Edited -

Heyhey ! (: Back again.
I don't know what's exactly going on at home.
I'd hope it isn't what I think it is luh. /:
Dad's always out, so is mom. & when they come home, they don't talk. o.o
o-oh. /: Probably they've quarrelled ? It's been like that since 13th March,
they didn't even come home for the whole night that day. Wow.. amazing eh ? o.o
They both have been like "challenging" each other?
Like both my mom and dad wants me to go out with only 1 parent.
They've been forcing me to go out when him/her.
Seriously speaking, I couldn't decide, so I stayed at home. -.-

Sigh.

My world seems like it's falling apart,
it's just a matter of time when it'd happen.

Totally pissed off, depressed, angry and yet satisfied.
I swear I'm sick and tired of it, having to go through such horrible days.
I want them to end. At once. ):
I'd hope tomorrow would be a better day for me.

Sigh, I hate them a lot.

Freaking DOWN.

Damn.

I bloodyfreaking hate this life of mine a lot.
& like wow, people are so cheerful everyday and I envy them.
Question is, how the hell are they able to keep up that smile for so long?
H-O-W ? I can only fake it for awhile and after that, it's no more.

I absolutely hate people trying to interfere into my private life.
Who do they think they are? & what a hypocrite she is.
Acting like she knows everything so well? Like everything's HER way?
I don't know what she's up to luh, I seriously can't be bothered. fxckzxit.
I HATE HER ! I want to shoot her with any horrible word here.
AHHHHHHHHHERHEBtaeowrhyteu __ trssdtjh. !

( I wish Ryan/Bryan was here to let me vent my anger on him. )
They're good people I tell ya.
They let me hurt them, physically, without shedding blood.

Good anger management.
Life sucks to da maximum.

Zomg. Zomg. Zomg!
This week sucks, totally. IP week ? Boooo. ;p

I'm like stucked in the MPR for almost the whole of the week.
& the worst thing is that there are so many teachers around you. D:
Sigh. I actually fell asleep while sitting up straight
& like durhh that I got woken up my some teachers whom are the
not-so-understanding ones of the cohort. T_T

---

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, neither am I looking forward to everyday.
Stressed out. Worn out. Tired of everything.
Owell, thank god, lady luck's on my side this time,
I needn't go to school tomorrow for some personal reasons. YAY.
Urgh, it's so not a good thing. ==

So many things on my mind. They rub salt into my wound.
I think my brain's gonna blackout sooner or later.

Save me.

All my fault

Olahhhhh! {:

Mom's angry with the three of us. My dad, my sister and I.
She's been gone for 8 whole hours. && I'm not worried at all.
'Cos she's been shopping happily all by herself and not letting me tag along.
SHE'S SUCH A MEANIE! She purposely gave me a call to tell me that she was shopping all by herself and she ain't getting me anything and she even gave me that horrible laughter. Ö
Evil her. ): Like mother like daughter eh ? My sister's that like too! She's nothing you can ever imagine. o: She uhberdamnbloodyfreaking evil, after what she's done today.
Nope, my lips are sealed. (: Not gonna say a word about it, hehe.

:D :D :D

Was lectured on the ways of life.
I've learnt, I've understood. Yeah, I have decided to follow my heart.
& do what's right.

Tags replied ! :D :

siyi : what d' ya mean? LOL? o.o
mk : The :D is to show that I'm happy? Get it ? (: huhuh?
Bryan : I'd believe her instead ! (:
... : Woahwoah ? ARE YOU A COUNSELLOR? :D :D
Yongxin : I definately remember youuuu ! (: psps (x never keep in touch,
Alonzo : Then hope I'd remember after replying my tags! :D LOL

Sheesh, Bryan is such a PIG. /:

It started off with the random meowing, mooing, oinking, etc.
& like WHAT DA HELL? That BRYAN got so obsessed with the laughter and crappy singing that he actually followed Jianhao and I back to the route back home which he couldn't take. Looser. Yeah, he found out he was walking the wrong way back so he happily pulled me by my innocent lil bagpack, -.- wanting me to go back with him. Of course, nuuuuuuu I didn't! (: Instead I let go of my bag and went off without it. Sigh.

I went home without my bag ! ): D: ]:

That sickening, perverticBRYAN went to check out my bag.
And touched SOMETHING he shouldn't. Curse you for that.
At least I got my wallet and handphone with me.

Crap.
That sickening piece of shit. -.-

Evocative music.

Tsk.

Currently I'm having like some brain malfunction right now luh huh.
I can't really concentrate properly.
Anyway, I can say that updating my blog is supaduper tiring now.
So many things to say yet I don't know how to put it.
Sigh. How awesome, I have problems starting with the first word and even at the end.
It takes around 30 minutes to finish a line. Damn.

The picture is pretty clear now. Probably I've made a wrong turn in life.
True, I'm the only decision maker in my own life, but I have doubts about who I am.
Apparently, I've changed. Unlikely to be for the better. Ponder? I shouldn't.
Can't avoid it somehow. I'm loosing my interests, each and every one of them.
I have a mind of my own and I'll face it alone. I'm getting what I deserve.

Life is hard, screw it.

Three cheers for PYMB ! {:
say goodbye to Overture Jubiloso.

Concert's over. SYF's not over. Sigh. -.-
I somehow don't really like Folklore, the song's repeats itself.
The choice isn't for me luh, Too bad for me. (x
UWAHAHAHAHAR ! Well then, i shall just go the way it is.

Anyway days have been tough on me.
So many decision making. To do or not to do. /:
I've been rash and insensitive. Overtaken by anger.
Anyway what's done cannot be undone, right ?
If it's so, I shouldn't dwell on it anymore, I shall go on with life. :D
Most importantly, I've realized my mistake, and I'll never do it again.
but I shall do the same when I really have to. ;p Idc, hehehehe.

╮(￣▽￣)v ciaoweee.