Hellohellohello. My last blog update was on the 15th December? Approximately 11 days and I'm finally back. (:

This week's been fine? :D Monday, a day out with Ebi. (E-B....... X: ). Tuesday was spent with my sister, from Bugis > Pasir Ris > Tampines > Pasir Ris (again, -.- ) > Parkway Parade. Owell, Tuesday was mainly about spending money.. You don't have to guess - Yes, I'm broke. ): Money makes the world go round? My world isn't round now...!!!! -_- It's a pity that I can't earn money, BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A JOBBBB! RAHHH!! Meh, I've got no time~ Why? Because of my aweeesomly busybusylikeayebee schedule.. ZzzzzZzzzzz~ Hmmm, Wednesday... Wed-nes-day.... O: Lemme think... Oh! There was band. I seriously felt like I came for nothing! HAHA! First, fall in, fall out, combined marching, section marching, sectional music (Warm-up nia.) .... Ydadadadada... Stoned while the band combined in the parade sq. becaaaause I've already transferred over to the pit percussion section and we were intructed to leave our instruments at the sectional area, so boh bian. ): Sian-ed for quite a while. After that, kept instruments and the end of Wednesday's optional band practice. Oh, nooooooO~ It didn't exactly ended cos Miss Joyce Goh wanted to speak to me so yeah, chitchatted and I found out why suddenly my mentality changed.. Owell... I prefer not to voice it out. Thursday, went to Sentosa with clique. PICNIC! Kk, Friday, my bed was my stoning ground. Saturday, went out with Ebi again. :D Oh, I meant, TODAY I went out with Ebi. :D Basically, went to deliver my sister's christmas present to my house. ( This sounds weird.. ) :p Bused to Jurong and MRTed to Tamp. Lunched at Long John. Ate a chocolate cream and had some sorta food poisoning. Can die. Sigh. -_-" SCREWWWWW!!! ): 2 trips to the ladies, ALSO CAN DIE! OHMYHOLYMAAADER! THE F*KING QUEUE WAS BLLAAARDY LONG THAT I HAD TO GO 2 FLOORS DOWN TO PAY A VISIT TO THE GODD*MNED TOIIILET. COULD HAVE JUST VOMITTED ON THE GROUND! So, suffer, suffer, suffered and tada! Finally I got a toilet bowl infront of me! THough, in the end I still had to queue. -.- Zzzz. HATEHATEHATEEEE! Basically, I camped in the toilet cos my stomach was annoying stubborn. But in the end, I became a merlion! Except that I don't have water coming outta my mouth. Only vomit. So happily, Ebi called me.. He was about to get medicine? But noooo, I was already fine.. And so I thought. Went to T1, sickening stomach started to give me pain again, MUST BE SOMEONE CURSE ME! ):< Nah, nonsense. Ebi bought some black charcoal tablets and I ate it. He also sang to me some random songs and his voice can revive the dead. :D POWER! It can even cure my tummy. X: So I listened to his 'wonderful' singing for about 1 and a half hour.... -_- The end.

I love horror movies... Heheheh~ I is not aye sadist.

Time is my enemy

Hehehe, suddenly I remember that after the YOG performance on 8th December, I met that primary school mate of mine in bedok interchange, giving out flyers. Hahhaa, it's Peishin. She seems the same from how she was before. I was blog hopping just now and I so happened to go into her blog and read her December 8th post. LOL. I miss her too luh. Too bad, we've somehow already lost contact. In fact I've lost contact with all of my primary school mates and moved on in life. I remember it was still in Secondary one that we still interact.. Owell.. I still remember the clique called the MFC. It's amazing how friends come and go, just like that. It still happens, even now.. It's a shame - A period in our lives we were so close and as time passes, we're almost strangers.
It's sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your lives starts with goodbye.

Tomorrow will be another day.

Yesterday, a full dress rehersal for the YOG performance for the band. It was great that my mouthpiece didn't drop out again.. Because I pushed the whole thing in and it sounds really sharp. X: Wellllll, you'd rather sound sharp than to let the mouthpiece fly again, right? At least I play to myself whenever we have to perform and I suppose people don't find me sticking out. It's a choice made without a choice anyway.. Sigh /: Well, worn out and hungry after the whole rehersal and so napped in the bus on the way to school.

Back at school, there was some checking of uniforms and after that we could go for lunch for an hour which wasn't enough at all. It's because the band store was locked and it took so long for it to be opened, we still had to change back into our pe attire which also took time. Well luckily the break was extended and it was good enough. (:

After lunch, I only remember when it combined. Well, I've always liked to combine the best. (: Played outdoor songs and the phantom of the opera which was really enjoyable. (: Normally I'll play it for fun but finally they're playing it for the next orientation day. :D

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Anyway, I'm in a very plastered state now thanks to the wounds all over. Why? Because I literally fell down together with my bike today at ECP. Hehehehe... x_x

Finefine, fine day today.....But then it drizzled... then it rained... Rained even heavier... And it was all, ..while we were cycling. Owell, I see the good and bad side afterall but at least the good things outnumbered the bad. (: Shall list down the bad side : 1) Cold. 2) Very cold. 3) Superduper cold. :p Yes, also drenched from head to toe.. It was really cold back then, anyone would've felt so anyway.

And so there was a shelter, which we stopped at for awhile but then continued cycling shortly after. Then it happened. I lost focus, lost balance, fell down and wasted a lot of my blood. )': I didn't actually bother about my wounds except for the ones on my fingers.. I was really worried about the blood clot on my index finger cos I really couldn't move my finger at that time. Luckily it's fine now.. Thank goodness, I'll still be able to play the piano and flute. Hahaha. Well, my hands and face always has it's prioties. :D

Dar helped to plaster my wounds for me and fixed my bike which also has it's own "injuries" and so we overshot the given time to return the bikes however there wasn't any penalties or whatsoever given because the guy with the receipt didn't actually checked it properly. It was his own loss while we just went off like nothing happened, haha. Guilt-less, Shhhhh... X: Well, I'm expecting no karma because firstly it was raining and secondly it was a lot of time wastage after I fell down, so yeah... (: Afterthat, we got overselves dirty with saltwater and sand all over. Reeeaaal uncomfortable. x_x Walkedwalkedwalked, something happened at 7 eleven, I remember.. X: Yadadada~ bused back > Can freeze to death in the aircon > Reached home > Showered. (Suddenly I appreciate warm water. :p ). And so whatever that happened, happened.

& Tomorrow will be another day, just like always. (:

Pathetique

Now that I think about it, my life's actually very messed up..
I don't have a family who cares. I seriously envy those out there who has a decent and loving family which I don't. I feel so miserable whenever I compare myself with others which I know I shouldn't 'cos I know they're still people out there who's lives are also hard on them.. But then again, it's the majority, the people around me who's led me to this pondering state. Sigh. I wished I was in the other's shoes. Well, if only... If only that happens.. A life of bliss - Is it that difficult to fulfill? Or more likely, it's.. Impossible.
; I've never dared dreamed about returning back home..

I found my star.

It's been the same thing, like how it always was - Band, band, band, band... It's now left with the YOG but afterthat, we'll soon practice for outdoor. It's like a train that never fails to keep on moving forward.. But, since I'm already here, I'll keep on persevering. Guess I also need more fuel to continue this way.. But then again, there're so many challenges, no, obstacles. So much complicating unhappines that I cannot reveal, thus, trying to hide.. But I feel one day I might just break down, after experiencing how unfair life is.. Sometimes I really just feel like giving up, but it's always because of the times I've failed that makes me stronger and things I've learnt that made me what I am today that keeps me going on and on. And at the end of all this, even if nothing comes out of it, I know I've already tried and did my best.... Sigh.

I feel as though I've lost my only clique. We're no longer as close. It seems like as though we've already went on to our individual seperate paths.. Perhaps they've already found much better people, like tossing aside the old ragged dolls and playing with/moving on to the more mordern toys that they have now. Owell, friends come and go, you see? It's never friends forever... not that I'm trying to be pessimistic or whatsoever but it's true. Reason being one: They're willing to give up older friends for ones that they've just got to know later in their lives. Kinda not worth it but if that's so then so be it.. I've got no way or another to stop you. Goodluck in achieving what you want in the future then, frankly we do not need each other to survive anyway. Well, at least we're ... normal friends. I know it'd be awkward to be like we were before.. after so much that happened because of some intruding. So let's just forget about it and let the past be just a part of our memories.. Our friendship story can end this way if it were written in a book " It was _ that let their paths crossed and it was also _ that seperated them. " A miserable ending, what a pity..

The YOG's performance.. I can say it changed a lot from the very first time is was done. And I hate the fight club now. It's seriously heartbrokening to see my MOUTHPIECE fly outta it's place and hit the ground really hard whenever i do it....................... T___T Question is, how the hell did it come out anyway.. Gosh. Normally people have to put grease to make their instruments be smoother and easier to take out but I don't even use it! I don't understand why whatever and whichever instrument I play for a long time will become smooth... -_- Maybe saliva, sigh~ Hope it doesn't happens again though...

; It's You. Happy 2nd 4th monthsary!
Today's day 519 and it also means it's the 55th where it all changed for the
better. I've never believed in forever, but whether you'll be able show me that
it really exists.. maybe, something something closer to forever at least.. - No
one knows. Well, I do hope you really meant what you said though. Dar, I love
you, wholeheartedly. <3