So much has occurred since my last update.
Are troubles really inevitable? Is it fate or what?
I guess people are more likely to make a stereotype of others and regard them as something far from what these people actually are.. Real far from who they are. It's frustrating to be judged by others based on first impression or whatsoever.. Sucks. Feels as though your life is the worst of the worst of the worstworst, totally unfair..... But it can't be helped. Today left me jaded and depressed.. I don't know why but I feel as though that the grass is much greener at the other end as far as I can see...... I feel so weak and pathetic like I don't have the strength to stand tall after falling anymore. It's not just one, but MANY problems I'm facing right now.. I need a miracle. Do you believe in miracles? /: Please... I'm not a machine, not a robot with no emotions, I'm not a genius, I'm not as smart as you'd think I'll be.. I'm not living a life of bliss, I'm having a hard life and lastly, I'm not perfect, like you are, we're both imperfect, as much as I can't expect you to understand me throughly, I can't understand the perfect way to satisfy you all. I'm sorry I'm so forgetful, I'm sorry I'm not focusing, I'm sorry I don't have all the time in the world, I'm sorry I chose this instead of that, I'm sorry I'm not reponsible enough, I'm sorry I'm so clueless to my surroundings, I'm sorry, sorry, sorry for troubling you all, sorry... sorry....... I'm not perfect. So much more to apologise to people around me..

I'm not looking forward to Chinese New Year.
I'm all alone. For the first time.